i crying now . haiis , i wanna help jazzlene, but i halfway give up half way want to help . i not strong enough . she nv tell me her problems, always so quiet . xiang asked me to monitor her . i was so happy at that time because i have a new respondsibility . but i nv though it would be so hard . i dun wanna giveup . this is the respondsiblity God had given me. i wanna show God i can do it . But it's too hard. so hard O Lord . so hard.
now i have distraction . i did not faced the problem. i avoided it . i though i can solve it wothout any help . i though if i dun care about it will go away . now i'm love sick . SHIT .